I pick up my Fuji x100t camera…again

I studied photography.

But, at that point, I felt bit like little I would’ve been stuck at college it I didn’t pick a major. As I was trying to decide what to do, I had taken more art classes than anything else. I couldn’t afford to stay longer. I needed my degree and I needed to get out. Figure things out later.

What did I take the most away from experience at my university studying photography? Whenever I was “creating” I felt completely intimidated. I never wanted to share my work and I still feel the same way to this day. So I still struggle…

Do I need to share my work? Can I create for the sake of it? Is it even a hobby if no one else knows about it? 😝

Can I bring others joy by staring my art — even it for simple entertainment?

I don’t know the answers. I’m going to deflect by showing a few photos of a town near to where I grew up.

This little park surprised me. (Even if it isn’t “enough” to share I have to start. To find out if I want to do this at all. Also, who gets to decide who should share? More questions.)

I haven’t shot in black and white in a while, so I switched the filter in the camera. I like doing this sometimes because you start seeing things you wouldn’t pay attention to otherwise. It’s a simple way to freshen your eyes a bit.

It was sunny that day. This park had some wooded areas, so we started there. There is so much texture and richness in a forest. I was attempting to capture some of that.

So here I am again in my phase of wanting to be more creative and share. But these photos were taken more than six months ago. Being creative? Meh, I’ll get around to it eventually.

My partner is a professional photographer. He left his career in software development to do something he truly loves.

So, what is it about photography that makes me happy? Why do I even do this? Why did I devote a significant portion of my life to this? (Junior and senior high school, college)

My answer, for now, is that I enjoy capturing something that personally brings me joy. I enjoy the beauty of what I’ve created. To me, it is beautiful. Or at least, before capturing something I saw it to be beautiful. (Doesn’t mean I’ve successfully executed!)

I’ll explore this idea more come back here to update y’all. In the meantime, maybe I’ll pick up my camera again. No promises, though.